Hello Y'all,
Well since it's early-early morning hours on Sunday...I can't say today meaning Saturday so I'll emphasize that when I do happen to type 'today' I'm referring to events on Saturday ok. LOL.
Yesterday (Friday) was fun! I went to work and discovered that we were all given the choice of staying at work without processing and doing something else, which I particularly don't like working on 'reviewing pends'...pluh pluh oooey yuck... or other choice is to work 2 more files and then take off the rest of the day either unpaid, vacation or PTO...I chose to take it off unpaid and leave! I'd say 99% of us left! I start work at 2:30pm and I left at 5:15pm -only 15 min after those other 98% already took off! LOL. I'm saving my vacation time for summer trip to Burbank CA!
It was sure nice to be able to enjoy the privilege of having a FRI NITE again! Tony and I went to dinner at 'yep' Subway (and Merrianne, OMG, I'm hooked on the Southwest Sauce now too!) and then went to see JUMPER movie! I absolutely loved it! Tony and I both did! And any of you that remember me mentioning before, that Tony is super critical and esp about movies! So if he really liked it, then 'you guess it' it's a great movie! Lol. If you haven't seen this yet, it's a MUST SEE! Awesum action-adventure, some suspense and thrill! I was totally entertained and could've sat through it again right there in the theater! Hee hee.
Then today (Saturday) I was able to enjoy lunch with my sweet Dad. I wanted to introduce him to one of my fave restaurant's Chino Bandido in Chandler. This place has such flavory spiced food -it's just to die-for yummy! Started by a husband/wife team... Eve and Frank both natives from Arizona have combined Mexican food and Asian foods from Eve's Chinese background and have created a one-of-a-kind menu! That was a nice lunch as I've been there quite a many times and today was actually my first time meeting Eve! I asked her if she's the husband/wife team who started the restaurant and she told me yes. She was so pleasant and so sweet, and kindly let my Dad sample the food beforehand as well as three other people who were there before our arrival. Dad was given the full hospitable treatment and Eve came over to us afterwards and asked "MIKE! How was your first time here? You like the food?" And Dad told her how much he liked the food. We had a great lunch.
Then I came home and had to nap after the large meal... I had my 'usual' ... Jade Red Chicken, Emerald Chicken Quesadilla style, Jerk Fried Pork Rice and Cuban black beans (refried)...Mmmmm and I almost forgot that we get free cookies with our meal... so Dad and I each ordered one of each offered... snickerdoodle and peanut butter and split half of each to share! Awesum lunch!
So I woke just a couple minutes before my sweetie Tony arrived to pick me up for our dinner and hockey game in Glendale! We had a yummy dinner at MargaritaVille after a chaotic and long wait to be seated. It was crazy packed with people because the hockey game was an intense and vital game tonight. It was significant for each team (Coyotes/Flames) as far as how their points are earned. So the center was packed to the hilt! We had never been there when it was that crazy busy and had no idea the restaurants would all have huge lines trailing out of the entrances. And we arrived 2 hours prior to the game which started at 8pm.
We waited in line for a little while and a hostess was walking down the line informing customers of the wait time and answering any questions of newcomers. She told us we could go in at any of the 5 bars to be seated and waited on for drinks and/or food, or wait in line for a table. We immediately took the option for the bar. This restaurant, if you've never been, is two stories...to give you an idea of how large it is. We wandered all throughout the place, hit each bar location and discovered not one place to sit...so we wandered back down and out of the restaurant. At this point Tony was super frustrated as he was starving and our time was pretty much limited and he had hoped to see the beginning practice of the hockey players before the game started.
I felt bad. Obviously there wasn't anything I could do to improve the situation. As you may know me, I'm quite affectionate and always try to reach out for support etc. So first, Tony wandered over to a bench and threw his hockey blanket to the bench and sat down, as the blanket hit the concrete instead of the bench, I picked it up and sat with him. As he was cooling off, he decided to go back in the line and wait. So we did. We had already lost our place in the long line from earlier... but here we were again. I looked at him and he looked very upset, I went to reach for his hand to hold and he pulled away and had this awful look in his eyes and face. I asked him if he was mad at me. He didn't answer so I turned, looked away and before I knew it, the tears were flowing. UGH!
Not now... not here ... I so hate crying in public. And I didn't want to cry in front of my man. I have, for so long now, tried to maintain my emotions and be strong. I've needed to be as strong as possible for as long as I remember now.
After finishing NEW MOON book late last night, and I have to admit to my sister Andrea, yes I cried during the last chapter. BUT, not because of the story, not because of the characters or what was happening in the story... but because that very last chapter contained a lot of similar emotions I have experienced since last summer and at the very moment it stirred up in me all the emotions I have had contained since then and since the last holidays, Thanksgiving and Christmas...and events that took place in my life at that time.
Not to mention, additionally, lucky me, Mr Monthly appeared yesterday on top of all things! So my emotions were quite surfaced and there was no stopping the flood of tears once they started. Please know, my friends, I was not sobbing... close to it, but it was just tears... non-stop flowing tears but I was not sobbing. Thank goodness I decided to go all natural as far as makeup is concerned today. LOL. My eyes were red, rubbed so probably a little swollen and puffy not to mention still very teary-eyed... when our same hostess was in front of us only a couple people ahead of us, and walking our way. UGH, and here I am with tears streaming down my face and trying my darndest to not let Tony see that I'm crying. Jeesh!
Talk about embarrassing. Well, I had as much of a dry face as I could muster and took quite a few inconspicuous deep breaths to calm and stop the tears from pouring out. Breathing in and out of my nose and exhaling as calmly and quietly as possible. I can't stand this sort of attention.
Our hostess friend appeared before us and I figured I'd say something to control the emotions and keep them unsurfaced...so I smiled and told her "we're back"...and she said she felt bad for us since she had told us to go ahead and go inside to the bar and here we are in line again and she knew we lost our place in line that had already gone ahead of us now. So she gave us one of those gadgets that you hold onto that vibrates and lights up when your turn in line to be seated has arrived. So we were in line to wait for one of those objects and wait again til it lights up. So we went inside and waited by a wall, now that we had it.
It wasn't long and Tony tenderly grabbed me and embraced me and told me he was sorry, that it wasn't my fault. Would you believe those darn tears started up again? Darn emotions. It was comforting and sweet to be held. How long it has been. I really needed that from him and of course that caused some of those buried emotions to surface too. I felt like a sobby mess and I couldn't stand it. I always think of other women who cry all the time in public are putting on some stupid show or trying to get something they want... so here I am, the tears are flowing uncontrollably again, and all these strangers surrounding me have no idea why my eyes are bringing the flood! LOL Jk. It sure seemed that way to me though. I was focusing as much as I could to contain those darn tears.
One pulls the plug from a dam that has been pushing and pushing up against a blocked opening for what seems like an eternity and by golly that dam is going to explode! tee hee.
Now a question presented... do I keep this on my blog and actually post it or just save it as a draft and publish later? I'm not comfortable bearing my internal feelings so nakedly for others to read. Strangers, friends and family alike... argh. So if I happen to post this, please know that this is not a sudden decision to expose my inner thoughts and feelings. I am not impulsive like that and in no way reveal what I hide so easily.
I've decided after pondering much thought ... to open myself up more. As a writer I need to do it, and I need to be unafraid of my birthday suit -so -to-speak! Here I am sharing what I feel so deeply and so intimately on this darn blog. Hmmmm, I wonder if I will regret it later.
I don't think I will regret this... I want to share who I am with others and ultimately we are all designed the same in many ways anyhow. We all have things we choose to keep private and some of us choose not to do so. And yet, why hide? I have a life that is so worth opening and sharing.
I'd like to eventually write about my life. There are many things about my life people even close to me don't know. How much of that will I actually write and expose? I don't know... but I'd like to be even more intimate in my writing. I prefer to bear my soul. Why not?
I wonder, about the private, quiet hidden secrets... which really aren't secrets, just private, but if they are revealed -would others prefer the mystery instead?
Ok so here I am going off on a tangent when this blog was supposed to be for sharing my daily events. Hmmmm... maybe I should re-think posting this one.
Back to where I was... anyway... we finally had a nice hug and chat. And then we were able to sit and have a wonderful meal together. In no time we were laughing and smiling again and having a grand time as we always do. Our food was appealing and delicious.
We were off to the game and we wondered what freebie we would get tonight! We each got a Coyote duffle bag this time! Yeehee! And they're nice. Tony could careless... I was happy to get a free gift and hey it's a useful one.
The game was intensely gripping and wrong - just wrong! We lost! It was awful. The opposing team, Calgary Flames had us in the very beginning... their first three hits at the goalie gave them 2 points! Two of the first three, went in! Grrrrr! Lots of Calgary fans tonight and the place was packed! It was a vicious start and continued with a tense game all night. Crashes here and there all evening... the players fought like mad to win -on both sides. It was indeed tense. The air was super thick with tension. Unfortunately Coyotes lost. b u m m e r . . .
So the night was an odd one... but we ended it nicely nonetheless and tomorrow we may be able to view a play at ASU at 2pm if we are lucky enough to get ourselves tickets.
I will also be searching online to find student loans and applying tomorrow evening sometime with Tony. Yay! Time is progressing and moving forward at a non-stop pace and sometimes it seems like it's racing against something. Gosh it's moving quickly, or so it feels anyway. I have so much to do before my lease ends in April. I can't wait to make it to Burbank! Getting closer everyday.
I'm pooped and heading to bed, g'nite all. :)
Well since it's early-early morning hours on Sunday...I can't say today meaning Saturday so I'll emphasize that when I do happen to type 'today' I'm referring to events on Saturday ok. LOL.
Yesterday (Friday) was fun! I went to work and discovered that we were all given the choice of staying at work without processing and doing something else, which I particularly don't like working on 'reviewing pends'...pluh pluh oooey yuck... or other choice is to work 2 more files and then take off the rest of the day either unpaid, vacation or PTO...I chose to take it off unpaid and leave! I'd say 99% of us left! I start work at 2:30pm and I left at 5:15pm -only 15 min after those other 98% already took off! LOL. I'm saving my vacation time for summer trip to Burbank CA!
It was sure nice to be able to enjoy the privilege of having a FRI NITE again! Tony and I went to dinner at 'yep' Subway (and Merrianne, OMG, I'm hooked on the Southwest Sauce now too!) and then went to see JUMPER movie! I absolutely loved it! Tony and I both did! And any of you that remember me mentioning before, that Tony is super critical and esp about movies! So if he really liked it, then 'you guess it' it's a great movie! Lol. If you haven't seen this yet, it's a MUST SEE! Awesum action-adventure, some suspense and thrill! I was totally entertained and could've sat through it again right there in the theater! Hee hee.
Then today (Saturday) I was able to enjoy lunch with my sweet Dad. I wanted to introduce him to one of my fave restaurant's Chino Bandido in Chandler. This place has such flavory spiced food -it's just to die-for yummy! Started by a husband/wife team... Eve and Frank both natives from Arizona have combined Mexican food and Asian foods from Eve's Chinese background and have created a one-of-a-kind menu! That was a nice lunch as I've been there quite a many times and today was actually my first time meeting Eve! I asked her if she's the husband/wife team who started the restaurant and she told me yes. She was so pleasant and so sweet, and kindly let my Dad sample the food beforehand as well as three other people who were there before our arrival. Dad was given the full hospitable treatment and Eve came over to us afterwards and asked "MIKE! How was your first time here? You like the food?" And Dad told her how much he liked the food. We had a great lunch.
Then I came home and had to nap after the large meal... I had my 'usual' ... Jade Red Chicken, Emerald Chicken Quesadilla style, Jerk Fried Pork Rice and Cuban black beans (refried)...Mmmmm and I almost forgot that we get free cookies with our meal... so Dad and I each ordered one of each offered... snickerdoodle and peanut butter and split half of each to share! Awesum lunch!
So I woke just a couple minutes before my sweetie Tony arrived to pick me up for our dinner and hockey game in Glendale! We had a yummy dinner at MargaritaVille after a chaotic and long wait to be seated. It was crazy packed with people because the hockey game was an intense and vital game tonight. It was significant for each team (Coyotes/Flames) as far as how their points are earned. So the center was packed to the hilt! We had never been there when it was that crazy busy and had no idea the restaurants would all have huge lines trailing out of the entrances. And we arrived 2 hours prior to the game which started at 8pm.
We waited in line for a little while and a hostess was walking down the line informing customers of the wait time and answering any questions of newcomers. She told us we could go in at any of the 5 bars to be seated and waited on for drinks and/or food, or wait in line for a table. We immediately took the option for the bar. This restaurant, if you've never been, is two stories...to give you an idea of how large it is. We wandered all throughout the place, hit each bar location and discovered not one place to sit...so we wandered back down and out of the restaurant. At this point Tony was super frustrated as he was starving and our time was pretty much limited and he had hoped to see the beginning practice of the hockey players before the game started.
I felt bad. Obviously there wasn't anything I could do to improve the situation. As you may know me, I'm quite affectionate and always try to reach out for support etc. So first, Tony wandered over to a bench and threw his hockey blanket to the bench and sat down, as the blanket hit the concrete instead of the bench, I picked it up and sat with him. As he was cooling off, he decided to go back in the line and wait. So we did. We had already lost our place in the long line from earlier... but here we were again. I looked at him and he looked very upset, I went to reach for his hand to hold and he pulled away and had this awful look in his eyes and face. I asked him if he was mad at me. He didn't answer so I turned, looked away and before I knew it, the tears were flowing. UGH!
Not now... not here ... I so hate crying in public. And I didn't want to cry in front of my man. I have, for so long now, tried to maintain my emotions and be strong. I've needed to be as strong as possible for as long as I remember now.
After finishing NEW MOON book late last night, and I have to admit to my sister Andrea, yes I cried during the last chapter. BUT, not because of the story, not because of the characters or what was happening in the story... but because that very last chapter contained a lot of similar emotions I have experienced since last summer and at the very moment it stirred up in me all the emotions I have had contained since then and since the last holidays, Thanksgiving and Christmas...and events that took place in my life at that time.
Not to mention, additionally, lucky me, Mr Monthly appeared yesterday on top of all things! So my emotions were quite surfaced and there was no stopping the flood of tears once they started. Please know, my friends, I was not sobbing... close to it, but it was just tears... non-stop flowing tears but I was not sobbing. Thank goodness I decided to go all natural as far as makeup is concerned today. LOL. My eyes were red, rubbed so probably a little swollen and puffy not to mention still very teary-eyed... when our same hostess was in front of us only a couple people ahead of us, and walking our way. UGH, and here I am with tears streaming down my face and trying my darndest to not let Tony see that I'm crying. Jeesh!
Talk about embarrassing. Well, I had as much of a dry face as I could muster and took quite a few inconspicuous deep breaths to calm and stop the tears from pouring out. Breathing in and out of my nose and exhaling as calmly and quietly as possible. I can't stand this sort of attention.
Our hostess friend appeared before us and I figured I'd say something to control the emotions and keep them unsurfaced...so I smiled and told her "we're back"...and she said she felt bad for us since she had told us to go ahead and go inside to the bar and here we are in line again and she knew we lost our place in line that had already gone ahead of us now. So she gave us one of those gadgets that you hold onto that vibrates and lights up when your turn in line to be seated has arrived. So we were in line to wait for one of those objects and wait again til it lights up. So we went inside and waited by a wall, now that we had it.
It wasn't long and Tony tenderly grabbed me and embraced me and told me he was sorry, that it wasn't my fault. Would you believe those darn tears started up again? Darn emotions. It was comforting and sweet to be held. How long it has been. I really needed that from him and of course that caused some of those buried emotions to surface too. I felt like a sobby mess and I couldn't stand it. I always think of other women who cry all the time in public are putting on some stupid show or trying to get something they want... so here I am, the tears are flowing uncontrollably again, and all these strangers surrounding me have no idea why my eyes are bringing the flood! LOL Jk. It sure seemed that way to me though. I was focusing as much as I could to contain those darn tears.
One pulls the plug from a dam that has been pushing and pushing up against a blocked opening for what seems like an eternity and by golly that dam is going to explode! tee hee.
Now a question presented... do I keep this on my blog and actually post it or just save it as a draft and publish later? I'm not comfortable bearing my internal feelings so nakedly for others to read. Strangers, friends and family alike... argh. So if I happen to post this, please know that this is not a sudden decision to expose my inner thoughts and feelings. I am not impulsive like that and in no way reveal what I hide so easily.
I've decided after pondering much thought ... to open myself up more. As a writer I need to do it, and I need to be unafraid of my birthday suit -so -to-speak! Here I am sharing what I feel so deeply and so intimately on this darn blog. Hmmmm, I wonder if I will regret it later.
I don't think I will regret this... I want to share who I am with others and ultimately we are all designed the same in many ways anyhow. We all have things we choose to keep private and some of us choose not to do so. And yet, why hide? I have a life that is so worth opening and sharing.
I'd like to eventually write about my life. There are many things about my life people even close to me don't know. How much of that will I actually write and expose? I don't know... but I'd like to be even more intimate in my writing. I prefer to bear my soul. Why not?
I wonder, about the private, quiet hidden secrets... which really aren't secrets, just private, but if they are revealed -would others prefer the mystery instead?
Ok so here I am going off on a tangent when this blog was supposed to be for sharing my daily events. Hmmmm... maybe I should re-think posting this one.
Back to where I was... anyway... we finally had a nice hug and chat. And then we were able to sit and have a wonderful meal together. In no time we were laughing and smiling again and having a grand time as we always do. Our food was appealing and delicious.
We were off to the game and we wondered what freebie we would get tonight! We each got a Coyote duffle bag this time! Yeehee! And they're nice. Tony could careless... I was happy to get a free gift and hey it's a useful one.
The game was intensely gripping and wrong - just wrong! We lost! It was awful. The opposing team, Calgary Flames had us in the very beginning... their first three hits at the goalie gave them 2 points! Two of the first three, went in! Grrrrr! Lots of Calgary fans tonight and the place was packed! It was a vicious start and continued with a tense game all night. Crashes here and there all evening... the players fought like mad to win -on both sides. It was indeed tense. The air was super thick with tension. Unfortunately Coyotes lost. b u m m e r . . .
So the night was an odd one... but we ended it nicely nonetheless and tomorrow we may be able to view a play at ASU at 2pm if we are lucky enough to get ourselves tickets.
I will also be searching online to find student loans and applying tomorrow evening sometime with Tony. Yay! Time is progressing and moving forward at a non-stop pace and sometimes it seems like it's racing against something. Gosh it's moving quickly, or so it feels anyway. I have so much to do before my lease ends in April. I can't wait to make it to Burbank! Getting closer everyday.
I'm pooped and heading to bed, g'nite all. :)
5 comments:
WOW! Christy....I wish I could REACH through this computer and give you a BIG HUG!! That is great that you got to go eat with your Dad!!! And, about your hectic evening with Tony....goodness....you should never be ashamed of your feelings & never try to be too "cool, calm, & collected" to cry. Those who really know you will see the sadness in your eyes anyway, so you might as well let it out.
You are a special daughter of God and I love you!
I SEE THOSE PICTURES of me & my little family on your blog!!!
(((BIG HUGS)))
I JUST POSTED ONE OF YOU ON MINE, too!! Love you & MISS you!
Hi Merrianne, thank you for your sweet comments. I meant to comment back sooner, but ran out of time. You manage to write/say just the right thing to make me feel good. Thank you for taking the time to do it.
And I appreciate the hug extended through the computer -tee hee. So needed. LuvYaLots, Christy :)
You're welcome, Christy. That's what friends & family are for!
Wink wink...so true! :)
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