Relationships and Life

I'm not sure where or how to begin. Sunday night Tony and I broke up. He no longer wants to be in a relationship. I'm devastated. I've been crying waterfalls of tears. I'm letting it all out, not holding any tears back - I probably couldn't if I tried. I really love him with all my heart. I've given him my heart. Nothing hurts more than to have it broken.

I was terrified of losing him to the battle of cancer and intense chemo treatments and I discover I lose him anyway. I'm allowing plenty of space and hoping he will reconsider this decision. At the same time I have to move on. I will always be here for him and my love is true and sincere. I do hope in time he realizes he made a mistake and will contact me. And yet, I am not going to wait either... not knowing how much time will pass before that happens... I can't.

I'm not ready for dating either. When I say I'm not going to wait, I mean in the sense of living. I have so many dreams and experiences I look forward to having in this life.

I would love to see the world. Travel. Go places and see different people and cultures and different ways of living. I love to explore and learn.

I still plan to go to school in Burbank CA for MakeUp Artistry in the next year or so. I have a lot of planning and preparing to do. It may take some time.

I'm off to go running. Ya'll have a beautiful day.

Luv and Hugz,
Christy